Yesterday was my first mother's day. It is still so strange to think about. For the past 4 years, I have spent mother's day in tears wanting so desperately to be a mom. This year I spent the weekend in tears because I am a mom!! Some days I still can't believe it is real.
I received an unexpected message from Gus' birthmom, "J", yesterday. I am sure that yesterday was a difficult day for her but she made a point to send me a message wishing me a wonderful day and also thanking me. Can you believe it? Thanking ME?? I'm the one who owes her many thanks....more than words can say. J sends me a message every holiday and I was unsure how this one would go. I was pleasantly surprised. We made it through what I thought would be a tricky and awkward hurdle. She and I will be forever connected on this day and I will always make sure that Gus' honors her on this day...but it was nice to see that the two of us have a little bit of balance for this day. I will always be Gus' mom, but his birthmom will always have a part of his life as well.
My parents were in town to babysit Gus while Joel and I chaperoned prom on Saturday night and then stayed to join us for Mother's Day brunch on Sunday. My boys treated me like a queen! I received some beautiful cards from family and friends for my first mother's day. So many people in my life made this such a special day. But the best parts of the day were the way it began and the way it ended. I woke up to Gus' squeals and I went to bed after snuggling with him. Perfection!!!